Friday, September 30, 2005

Emergency...




I had to go to the emergency room today. I was taken by an ambulance too. Today I went to class with Kasai around 11AM. I was feeling fine and dandy all morning long, seriously. Around 12:20 when I dropped her off at work is when all heck broke loose. I got the worse pain in my lower stomach than i have ever felt. It was so bad that i didn't even think i was going to be able to park my car and make it to where ever i needed to go. I was lucky enough to make it into a restroom of a building on campus, where i cried and cringed over the toliet and finally found some rest sitting on the restroom floor doubled over in pain. Thats when i called kasai who called her mom, who works at the police station, who came over. And they rescued me. :) Kasai's mother stayed with me till the ambulance go there. Bless her heart. I sat in a chair in the restroom and cried and she rubbed my back and reassuared me. So thankful for her, felt like my mother being their.

I was taken to a hospital in Tomball, Texas (close to houston) where i was treated after about five (5) hours. Turns out that they really didn't give me an exact diagnosis, after taking ALL my blood, giving me and IV and taking x-rays. The doctor basically said that it most likely was a virus. But it could also be a cyst on my ovary, or my pancreaus (sp?), whatever checks for the healthy state of your pancreaus (sp?) showed my level was a little higher, If good it would have been in the 125 range mines was in the 168 range. No biggie he said really.

So after that i was slapped with a $1400 (+) hospital bill. For them to prescribe me a $6 prescription for some nasty green stuff. If anything hurt me the most it wasn't all the times i was stuck with needles it was the bill at the end of the day.

Needless to say, Kasai got their as soon as she could and stayed with me, and my auntie (bless her heart) for whom this blog has a name after (rosie, her name is really millie) came 2hrs and waited on me, just to make sure i was okay.

They love me they really love me.

And that was my day...i missed my 2 o'clock class. But this is a valid excuse right?

...didn't get to pick up my check from work either...

In response

In response to a comment made about "the choking game" post. My whole point for the post is to get the word out. I had never heard of that game, and I want to be so sure that it can get lost in the heap of other deadly games that children and adults alike should never participate in. I am sorry for your lost, cannot say i know what it is like to lose a child, especially at an early age, but to lose a close young one in their prime i do know. its sad that the fact of losing one to a game is happening. I question how could this all be prevented? What actions need to be taken in order to prevent more deaths? How do we convince children that not all games are good games and need to be played? How do we discourage such behavior? How do we save our children? Not everyone saw Oprah, so many are still oblivous to the fact. So how is the word to be spread so that it can be discouraged to participate in this deadly game? I would love to speak to scores of youngin's to get their opinion. For them to give me a little inside information as to how this stuff gets around, city to city, state to state. And what their honest opinions are. To me this needs to be address before it really 'catches' on and we lose our young in ways that can be prevented. I encourage any parent to speak to their child, and mentor to help a child, older sibling, aunt uncle to encourage proactive behavior and smart thinking.
Just my thoughts.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

House


This has to be arguably be the best drama on television. i'm very hooked.

note won't be returning till after baseball season is over on the 1st of November

that sucks incredibly

def. putting season one dvd on my christmas list. if a 21 year old is still allowed to have a christmas list.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

"the choking game"

I def. haven't heard anything like this in a long while. Children are choking themselves for a short "high". No longer are they using weed, they are actually playing with their lives to the nth degree and choking themselves till they pass out. Okay i hate to sound cliche' but "what is wrong with this generation?" Seriously, choking yourself for a short high. I mean a short high. Going so far as to put yourself an inch close to death for a high. Gosh, are children that bored. Getting less attention than ever, that they have to go as far as to choking themselves for fun. Choking I've always thought had a negative conotation (sp?), now its a game? I know we all 'play' with our lives daily, we drive, we trust others to cook our food and all that jazz. its really sad that children are dying from this, but i think parents need to know...and students too. this is serious, and frankly dumb that innocent children are dying over a game...we need to work on this problem.

Sitting at the house



School cancelled till tomorrow. So I haven't been on campus since last Wednesday, a whole week. Any other time this would have been great, but with no school, that only leaves me a chance to stay at home and look crazy. So i'm actually anticipating school starting, i actually like my busy life. No newspaper to be produced to this week, and I'm sure some presidential dinners i was invited to are cancelled also. I hate having to start school in the middle of the week. But I guess I can't complain. I mean I can, but I won't.

Just some stuff to throw out there:

I bought a bed from Ikea, no longer on the floor. Oddly enough I enjoyed just having my matress on the floor. One you never had to worry about falling out of the bed, my grandfather brought this to my attention last time he was here, two once you get used to something its hard to change. [will post photo later]

Purchased a family guy dvd "stewie griffen the untold story" and "the ring two" from Best Buy. Sweet!


Did a little shopping @ Ross and got some cute clothes to wear to classes.

Getting contacts, testing out some right now until i get my presecription next week.

Also go the 3rd season of "king of queens" like my favorite show after family guy. seriously. i love that show.

on the phone....can't blog and hold a convo.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

I stole this and I like it

Blessed Sunday

wow. its already Sunday. i didn't think the first day of the week could get here soon enough. now we are in the aftermath of a hurricane. stores restocking and re-opening. gas being brought in, and people returing back home. still a little chaos. i mean its a bit fustrating, because we are spoiled, that businesses are not open. if any lesson has been learned its that patience works wonders. seriously. waiting in line for gas, not having road rage, waiting for the grocery store to re-open and any other little thing that is taken for granted. just a blessing to know that we have all of this...just going to take a little time for it to get back and running.

so spoiled that i want Ikea to open today. go figure. and it would be nice if best buy were open too...can't wait to get the new family guy dvd on tuesday.

ah wal-mart i'll see you at noon.

More gas...

I-10 @ Hwy 6 a Shell station has gas..

I know where to get some gas

To my fellow Houston neighbors:

Two places that for sure have gas...

A Raceway (used to be racetrack) on the corner of Steeple Park and Jones Road...past Krogers...gas for sure...just filled up myself...only regular...but at this point who cares...waited for like 5 minutes behind a car...but the wait really isn't even that long..she started cleaning her windows...other pumps were open..

Shell station at 1960/Hwy 6 exit on 290, across from Chipoltle and IHop...long line yesterday, but took no more than 20mintues to get gas...good considering

If i hear of anymore i will post.

Wingstop on Jones Road is open. Kroger on West Road off of Hwy 6 looks to be open...i see a long line...

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Hurricane Day Two

written september 23, 2005
it's day two of evacuating. we were going to stay in houston, but this morning around 8AM we drove 30miles north to Prairie View where my school is located, to Kasai's parents house. And its now 7:19PM and we've been here ever since. All day we've been sitting at home doing not a thing. No wind is blowing anymore than usual. No rain no anything. We really don't have any food food, a bunch of snacks and stuff. and its starting to get old with the snacks. her father today boarded up the windows and we're pretty secure in the home. but if push comes to shove we're all going to the baby dome on campus, where the basketball team plays, and be in there with the entire city of prairie view. blah. so hopefully we'll be able to stay at the house. though i would have opted to stay at my own home really. there is still no gas ANYWHERE, and we're 30miles out of houston. everything is closed, and you won't believe how many stalled cars are on the vacant highway. when we were driving to come to prairie view this morning we were the only ones on the highway, besides maybe 15 other cars. seriously. no traffic, no one. houston is VACANT. houston texas the 4th largest city in the country is like a ghost town seriously. i really realize how we take things for granted. i would give almost anything to have some potato fries from jack in the crack. its like we are so used to being able to say i'm hungry lets go get some food. heck we can't do that. we are trying to conserve gas and food. i mean we are straight for a few days, but if the power goes out...wow...can we last till tuesday...eh...

trying no to watch the news. because its saying the samething over and over. nothing new really. it was supposed to be a category 5. its now a 3. and if that sucker can go down to a tropical storm thats fine by me. hopefully it will. i have some video footage that i will soon share. it's really so hard to fanthom that things are closed, that things aren't avaliable and everything like that. people are gone. gas is free. and trash is everywhere. you just have to be here to believe it. i said i would never live in houston, the year i decide to come...heck here comes Rita too. go figure. so hopefully we won't have to evacuate this house and go to shelter on campus, but if the winds are to pick up as they say they should, than we'll be in the first thing smoking. hopefully we can return back to houston and to our homes. really want to beat all the traffic and be the first ones back.

prayers. all around....all that can be asked.


Houston...we have a problem.

Back Home

safely made it back. electricity is working. water is running. everything is fine. at least in this area of town. still i have no gas. so stuck at home. not much food...but i do have water. glad to be back home. i do have some video footage of our evacuation process...i'll have to edit it in imovie..then hopefully i can share with the web.

i'll post a journel entry i made from yesterday...to share the mood here in houston.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Gotta go

I am having to evacuate my home today. So this will most likely be the last time i post till after the storm. Prayer for me and my family.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Rita

uhhruuh...miss hurricane rita, close cousin of katrina, could you please spare us. please. call me selfish and lazy, that i may be, but i'm really not wanting to evacuate my home this weekend. really not in a finacial situation to even do such. so if you could kindly minimize yourself to a level 1 or just simply back to a tropical storm that would be great. we can make this compromise right?

i mean here i am in the houston area, where i said i would never live. wait not the houston area...here i am IN houston. and the year i choose to move to this great city, you want to visit also. dude no freaking way. please stop by the ocean and fine by that.
school has been cancelled till monday. thats bittersweet. so if you could just not happen and let me take this four day weekend i would be thrilled.

spare some lives. in fact spare all lives in galveston and those area's more closely affected than mine. let them be able to come home, with homes in tack. and spare those that don't already have flood insurance. let this be just a warning. ya know. we got out pretty fast. now give us a break.

half way thru this composure...i know that i should be addressing this to God. intercetption coming right about........NOW

Houston Evacuate?

call me stubborn but I don't think I need to leave. I live on the NW side of Houston, which I don't see being a potential danger, as far as the hurricane is concerned. Now being near the highway might be a problem...ya know people act so different and crazy when disaster strikes. School has been cancelled till Monday, thats a sigh, i had a spanish test on friday. But idle days suck too. But i will go by water, some food and what not. Hopefully. I have insufficent funds in my account, but my overpayment check is supposed to be in today. Praying! I need this soooo bad....i cannot explain. I will keep you updated...i might have to evacuate...not sure

Monday, September 19, 2005

Scale of one to ten

i'm about a negative 12. today is a true monday indeed. one of the worst days i have ever experienced. i couldn't even go 'thru the motions'....tears overwhelm me...sick to my stomach...

all i can do is pray.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

One out weighs the other


Family Guy so wins this one. I'd pick FG over Simpsons anyday.

actually i'm 21...but still a compliment

You Are 22 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What church do you go to?


very popular question now a days. people are very curious to others religious beliefs, if any. so i guess i'm just as curious. i pose this question to everyone and i hope many will respond,

what church do you go to?

why

my answer: shady acres church of Christ, because it is an example of the church that is found in the New Testament, it is the church that Christ died for, it is a Bible church. Those that obey God's Word shall enter into Heaven.

So i pose the question to you. Just curious.

You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion.
Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu..
Your convictions are strong and unwavering.
You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Ikea i like thee




i'm so purchasing this frame this weekend. hopefully they will have it in stock. and its in pieces so that i can fit it in my two door car as i did my matress. which is currently 'housed' on the floor. ooo...i want this bed fram soooooooo bad!!!


edit its only $99 thats like getting two pair of jordans for $85.. {cheese}

What's on in the wee hours

Made it through another production night at the paper. whew...hard work no doubt.
I didn't make it home till 2AM last night and had to be up no later than 5:45, to make it to my 8AM class. An hour to dress and at least 30 minutes to drive to school. So i'm in turbo mode, because the sleep that i got last night this morning was a tease. And no one likes to be teased.
So Wednesday's i'm just basking off stored energy basically. Going through my day, praying that it go by faster than Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday's can be just as bad as Tuesday's.
I attempt to function properly. I manage.

now it is 6:20AM, i am dressed, my house is a mess, i cleaned the toliet [hate to have a dirty commode], and i'm debating on if i should take back to junior high and fix myself a lunch, or bank that i'll get an overpayment check on friday, and splurge to buy something at school.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Indesign please marry me...

tonight is production night at the paper....

pvpanther.com

eh...being news editor has really made me wish to be a normal person again...

production night...blah

Monday, September 12, 2005

Another Monday



i am posting this at 6:28AM. a true monday indeed. i spent the whole weekend preping for no classes. i was just a lazy bum in all honesty. and here it is monday, and i still have the same amount of knowledge about my classes as i did on friday. the studying bug has got to hit me soon. it just has to. or else i'll...

Sunday, September 11, 2005

Let us worship God



caption: Shady Acres Church of Christ, Houston, Texas

One day [Lord willing] i'll make it to the 6AM service for worship. But for now i'm attending the latter at 10:30AM. Great song service, wonderful preaching, it works for me.

I've been attending church all my life some dips and drops in attendance, but none the less i was brought up in a Christian home. My grandfather was a Gospel preacher, and my uncle is currently the minister of my home congregation in Dallas. My grandmother was the Sunday school teacher till her demise last summer, and really the majority of my relatives do attend worship service.

I've had my ups and down with religion. Baptized into Christ at age 13, at a youth conference in Arkansas. But one thing that is solid, I have faith. I belong to His church. Will always stay in His church. I love the Lord. I love His church.

Saturday, September 10, 2005

I would so like a response too...



Friday, September 2nd, 2005

Dear Mr. Bush:

Any idea where all our helicopters are? It's Day 5 of Hurricane Katrina and thousands remain stranded in New Orleans and need to be airlifted. Where on earth could you have misplaced all our military choppers? Do you need help finding them? I once lost my car in a Sears parking lot. Man, was that a drag.

Also, any idea where all our national guard soldiers are? We could really use them right now for the type of thing they signed up to do like helping with national disasters. How come they weren't there to begin with?

Last Thursday I was in south Florida and sat outside while the eye of Hurricane Katrina passed over my head. It was only a Category 1 then but it was pretty nasty. Eleven people died and, as of today, there were still homes without power. That night the weatherman said this storm was on its way to New Orleans. That was Thursday! Did anybody tell you? I know you didn't want to interrupt your vacation and I know how you don't like to get bad news. Plus, you had fundraisers to go to and mothers of dead soldiers to ignore and smear. You sure showed her!

I especially like how, the day after the hurricane, instead of flying to Louisiana, you flew to San Diego to party with your business peeps. Don't let people criticize you for this -- after all, the hurricane was over and what the heck could you do, put your finger in the dike?

And don't listen to those who, in the coming days, will reveal how you specifically reduced the Army Corps of Engineers' budget for New Orleans this summer for the third year in a row. You just tell them that even if you hadn't cut the money to fix those levees, there weren't going to be any Army engineers to fix them anyway because you had a much more important construction job for them -- BUILDING DEMOCRACY IN IRAQ!

On Day 3, when you finally left your vacation home, I have to say I was moved by how you had your Air Force One pilot descend from the clouds as you flew over New Orleans so you could catch a quick look of the disaster. Hey, I know you couldn't stop and grab a bullhorn and stand on some rubble and act like a commander in chief. Been there done that.

There will be those who will try to politicize this tragedy and try to use it against you. Just have your people keep pointing that out. Respond to nothing. Even those pesky scientists who predicted this would happen because the water in the Gulf of Mexico is getting hotter and hotter making a storm like this inevitable. Ignore them and all their global warming Chicken Littles. There is nothing unusual about a hurricane that was so wide it would be like having one F-4 tornado that stretched from New York to Cleveland.

No, Mr. Bush, you just stay the course. It's not your fault that 30 percent of New Orleans lives in poverty or that tens of thousands had no transportation to get out of town. C'mon, they're black! I mean, it's not like this happened to Kennebunkport. Can you imagine leaving white people on their roofs for five days? Don't make me laugh! Race has nothing -- NOTHING -- to do with this!

You hang in there, Mr. Bush. Just try to find a few of our Army helicopters and send them there. Pretend the people of New Orleans and the Gulf Coast are near Tikrit.

Yours,

Michael Moore

Fidel and his doctors

maybe i'm wrong but i thought it was a nice gesture for him to offer up sending some physicians to help in the wake of hurricane katrina. i don't undertstand really the decline in his offer. but than again i somewhat do. here's what i don't agree with.

saying that cuban medical care doesn't fit american standard and they don't have the same liscenseing (sp?) as american doctors. umm...hello that is just a standard set by america, that doesn't mean they are any less or any more qualified to practice medicine. i hate the american way sometimes. its always its our way is right your way is wrong period. that is so WRONG. just because its american standard doesn't mean its the way to go. doesn't make it any better than anything else. heck if i were in the situation i'd want someone with a medical background helping me than, having to suffer and not be seen. its just outrageous to think that the declined because they are not certified or whatever in america. eck...

stupid stupid stupid.. though i know there are other reasons...but this is a dire situation.

Friday, September 09, 2005







one of my favorite resturants! chipotle

i can order a burrito for like $7...[yes $7]. but not only can i eat it for dinner/lunch...i always have some left over for breakfast the next morning or whenever i get hungry. so i see it as paying for two meals in one. its very satisfying and i don't even think its possible to eat a whole one in ONE setting. but i'm sure some people may be able to. i just know that i can't.

burrito combination:

rice [of course]
steak
pinto beans
cheese
gucamole (sp?)

and everytime i order and ask for gucamole they always make it a point to say "you know that's extra?" YES i know its extra, just put it on my food so i can eat!!!

if you've never eaten one of these you are def. missing out and i would recommend you join the club asap..

just thought i'd share.




this has to be my favorite candy of all time. i would so buy these in bulk. i usually hit up a dollar store and buy about $5 worth. they are soooooo tasty, chewy and good. and their german too.



update

my fricking financial aid came in today! i can pay for schooling. the rest of school actually. praise the Lord.

Thursday, September 08, 2005




"Almost everyone I've talked to says, 'We're going to move to Houston.' What I'm hearing, which is sort of scary, is they all want to stay in Texas. Everyone is so overwhelmed by the hospitality.

And so many of the people in the arena here, you know, were underprivileged anyway, so this, this is working very well for them."


- Barbra Bush, former first lady

Gotta love this quote. Seriously. It doesn't get anymore blatant than that. And i'm not even bringing up the race card here.




i'm so convinced that apple is out to screw me over sometimes. they introduce this spiffy ipod model the nano...not even an entire year after i purchased my ipod mini. they discontinued the mini!!! what the freak!!! i want a nano...but i'm a college student, i would never be able to be that frivolous (sp?) and have both a mini and a nano. thats just crazy. especially when my mini is working totally fine, and i have NO reason to replace it. though i'm wrestling with putting it on ebay and then using the money to buy a nano...


mommy

its me again. your spoiled child. I WANT A IPOD NANO TOO!!!

there just aren't enough hours in the day.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

i without a doubt hate holiday's on monday's. they screw up my entire week and leave me thinking that every day is the previous. and that just messes with my head and i don't like it. tuesday's are supposed to be monday's, thursday's should be wednesday and all of that, just really messes me up. i'd take a friday holiday over a monday holiday any day. monday holiday's serve no purpose really. yes you can sleep through on sunday, but its not like you can really enjoy the monday evening any different than you would a regular monday because you still have to get up on tuesday morning to start your week.

friday holdiay's at least you can have a different kind of thursday because you can sleep in on friday and friday's can just be extended because you always get to sleep in on saturday's, and then you just get a longer weekend, and go back to work/school on monday as you would anyways. just works better that way for me.

someone questioned why i was no longer talking about katrina. me just talking about it will solve nothing. i'm in the process of searching my closet so that i can do do something. donate a few things, because i do not have $$$ to give. i still mourn for the victims of Katrina, but i cannot stop daily life forself.

my prayers will stay the same.

Monday, September 05, 2005

http://www.yourdailymedia.com/media/1118936896

so this is what and how they are teaching out children?

what a labor day.

just found out that my grandmother is in ICU. her sugar level was very high. she almost went into a diabetic coma. she's resting now...is basically all my uncle would say. i don't know if she is fairing yea' or nea'. nothing i can do though. i would like to be there, but that isn't going to solve anything. so my moms just told me to stay put. period

stressing about school. making the first installment payment by wednesday is taking at toll on me. its really stressful when you have classes and money on your mind.

first spanish test on wednesday too. this first test will either make or break me.

yes these are my simple worries in comparison. but they are still my worries.

Lord have mercy on me us.

Sunday, September 04, 2005


i know that a lot of people are throwing out the infamous 'race card' right now in the aftermath of katrina, and for me i'm somewhat indifferent to it. because for one, where ever the media is concerned there will be bias and race as an issue, not matter what. when it comes to the government too. but we cannot just focus on race. because that will turn us from the focus, the focus that people are in NEED. dire need. its not about being black or white right now, its about making sure that babies are being feed, mothers are finding their children, the elderly is being rescued, animals are being sheltered and so forth. lets not loose focus, that a natural disaster has happened and people are living their lives in harsh conditions. the media has made sure to bring forth the negative.

hell the whole hurricane is a negative, why make more. why display the looting, the violence and all that. report it but don't hype it and make it the main focus. lest we forget that people have lost loved ones, people are living in shelters with no showers, no working toliets, and just wandereing and worrrying and really have nothing. we are all so blessed. each and everyone of us. and all we can do is complain about gas prices. i'm blessed that i have the resources, the funds to pay for gas what er' it may be. they don't even have that. so i encourage all to donate. money, clothes, items ANYTHING.

lets quit complaining about what should have been done, and focus on what's going to be done, or whats being done.

presently. now...the future.

Pray.

so again what is the POTUS doing for the survivors of Katrina?

so glad he was elected...always need at least one idiot on our side.


POTUS = president of the united states

Saturday, September 03, 2005

continued from previous post...

so basically i said all that to say that things are hectic and crazy down here in houston right now. i know it would be the perfect oppurtunity for I as a journalist to go down to the astrodome to get interviews or to overall get a feeling of the situation, but really thats not possible. people are advised to stay home, and avoid the chaos. so as a single woman i would be like shark bait. i do have common sense.

just continue to pray is all that i can say. i do not have money to give, but i have some clothes i can donate, and prayers i can offer up. thats it.

i can't imagine. not in the least can i imagine. i go crazy if i can't remember where i place my purse or wallet, or heck my other shoe...so to lose everything....unimaginable.

gas is the least of our worries.

Friday, September 02, 2005

king of queens is officially my favorite show

okay i feel like the need to share a little bit of what people are saying around here.

i am right here in houston, in all the 'action' and its seriously something bad going down, down here.

crime is up to wazoo...rape, theft, car-jacking everything you name it. the classic [pv vs. tsu] has been either moved or cancelled due to all the people being housed in the astrodome. i've heard so many word of the mouth stories that i don't know what to believe. i have heard that people have been trying to help the victims by taking them food and that those people are being carjacked while trying to help. a guy in my rehtoric class said his best friend said that it looks like a scene from "the dawn of the dead" the way people are just walking around in that area. rapes are high. people can't shower


interrupted

Thursday, September 01, 2005

just a post for history sake.

lowest price for gas in my area (nw houston) is $2.89, the highest i've seen is $3.11 for regular.
stopped at a diamond shamrock station...first thing i noticed was more than half of the pumps where not usable...they had yellow bags over them as if they were out of order. then once i did find a pump...a small sign read

no regular unleaded or plus, only super and diseal

NO REGULAR. regular that is already $3!!! what is a girl supposed to do. i stopped at two stations that didnt' have regualar.
this gas thing is no joke. i live off campus and am 25miles away from the campus...back and forth 50miles. so do i now have to figure out which classes i can't make on certain days. such as i can come on monday's and friday's but i can't make wednesday or i can come on tuesday but not thursday. this is just out of control. i've never seen anything like this.

disturbing to here everyone say that we are in our final days. i try not to look at it like that. don't let disasters and turmoil make you think we are in our final days. for some reason i have this belief that when everythings is going well, fine and dandy and when you LEAST expect it thats when we are in our final days. but in all honesty. no one knows. no one can speculate. we can only always live our lives as if its our last.

interruped back in a sec.

back thats what i believe. maybe its a derail to not be so scared right now. but i always fear the Lord. maybe not as much as i need to, and that goes for all of us. but i do fear Him, and know what He is capable of. so don't get me wrong. i want to have my life in order when He does come back. but i know that He has not forsaken me, and i trust in Him.

so that i try not to 'worry' about. heck if we thought like that daily, maybe we'd be a better society. but i honestly do believe that when stuff starts to just fall in place, and it just seems to good to be true....

thats IMHO.

one more thing i want to touch on. please fasfa send my money. i am in DIRE need. i mean seriously. the stress is killing me. well not literaly, but heck it might as well strike me. hard to sleep at night knowing that i only have till wednesday to come up with $1482. but i do trust in the Lord, and try not to 'worry'. but i am human and i do lack in being the most strong faithful Christian at times. but i will just pray. what more can i do. He's been here this whole time i've been in college, why would He forsake me now?

back to studying

stress.

only word i can find to describe how i feel at this moment in time. from money worries [will be dropped from classes on wednesday if not paid], to professors being unreasonable [demanding books, making it where you can only turn in assignment online, to requesting a two essay's turned in at 5pm when only given the assignment at 1:50pm the same day.] to gas prices soaring...its $3 here in houston. and that plays a huge factor in my daily life.

money that i would have for other things...little eating out here...going to a football game here...buying a snack at school is being taken away by having to put gas in my tank. and i'm really feeling the effects. eating the bare necessities (sp?) [had chicken noodle soup and water for lunch today]. I mean life is good, but money is few and far in between. The economy (to be real clique') sucks.

what a welcome to 'adulthood'

a prayer times 10 is needed.